The Space Heater

Feb 10 2009

McDonald's is nice.

cancel that order


Standing in line at restaurants has always made me - well, pensive, I guess is the word. You only have so long in the line, after all. If you’re just sitting at a table, you get all fucking day to decide. You can send the waiter away ten times just to get you drinks and still keep deciding. And, as long as you tip well, no harm done. Oh, no. No fucking way at Mickey Dee’s.

I go to McDonald’s three times a year, max. I don’t eat meat. Every time I walk into the place, it’s immediately as though you are getting a glimpse of what Americans would look like if this were a third-world country. The smell of meat mingles with the smell of $2.50 smokes and last night’s forties, and creates what I like to call Eau De McDonalds. I hope to hell every time there’s a mentally handicapped guy (like autistic, not just from Podunk, Nowhere) working the counter, because then at least they try to be polite to you, be human-on-human. All I ask is that someone tries every one-in-ten times you go to McDonnie’s.

It takes me at least thirty seconds to adjust to the surroundings. By then, at least half the people in front of me have ordered.

What the fuck am I doing here? It’s 9 in the morning on a Sunday, and I’m high as shit! What am I going to order? I’ll order a pizza, they’ve got to have pizza. Damnit MICK DICKALDS, why don’t you just have a bean burrito or a cheese pizza or just some carrots stuck between buns? Okay, at least it’s the breakfast menu. I can just get an Egg McMuffin right? Those don’t have a floppy patty that looks like it’s anorexic on them do they?

“Hello, sir, may I help you?” The girl at the counter is wearing a Hijab. I wanted to make a joke about “Jihad vs. McWorld”, but I first considered that nobody had probably read or heard of that who was there, and also that it would also be construed as racist. She asked who was next, but my friends and I were confused because she was either blind, or just really fixated on that spot on the floor. I stumble up to the counter.

“Uh, hey, uh, can I ah get a number one meal, the ah Egg Mc…McMuffin thing, you know what I mean?”

“Anything else?” she asked to that very interesting spot.
“Uh, no, that’s good.”
She told me the ominously-low total. I fished in my back pocket for my wallet. It was there, thankfully, but there was no money inside, and my debit card was missing. I turned to Kirby who was with me.

“Uh, dude, I don’t have any money…”
“Yeah you gave it all to Andy last night…” (for my half of that weed).
“Ohhh, shit. Yeah…” I turned to the young lady at the register. “Uh, well, ah my fffreiind herrree is paying fffor mmeee…” I saw no acknowledgement that she understood the situation, but Kirby ordered anyway.

The transaction went off without a hitch, except that I wanted to stay there and Courtney wanted to leave. She had said earlier that she wanted to stay there. That’s a majority vote of three for staying.

We were walking out with our orders to-go from McDonald’s.

“I thought you knew I was joking when I said I wanted to stay in there!” said Courtney.
“No! I thought you were serious!”
“Of course not! Why would I want to stay in there? Those people are all insane!”
“I know, they’re all so fucking weird,” said Kirby laughing.
“Well, I wanted to stay. By the way, was that lady in there blind or am I just seeing things?” I asked.
“I don’t know, I didn’t notice at all,” agreed Kirby and Courtney.

“Why had I wanted to stay at McDonald’s?”, I wondered to myself. I hated the people, I hated the food, I hated everything the place stands for. Maybe it’s because I didn’t want to wait to eat.

But there is something religious about a place like McDonalds or Wal Mart, isn’t there? There is a transcendence taking place when you immerse yourself among the refuse of culture. Once the shock of actually being in the nether-regions of humanity wears off, you start to wonder about your superiority. These people are at least interesting because most teenage hipsters cannot understand them, or have never attempted to. They are an enemy, but the more I stare in contempt, it becomes contemplation, and then sympathy, and- no, surely not empathy, that would mean putting myself in their places. To sit in their rusted ‘80’s pickups, to go home to air television and Busch Light. And what, again, makes that life any less productive than the average teen to young adult in our society?

Well, I had forgotten about the human zoo around me as I bore down upon the McMuffin. I had not been brave enough for a McGriddle, which apparently has pancakes, sausage, cheese, and “eggs”, all in a McDonald’s sandwich! Besides, I wouldn’t have to request no meat on the sandwich. I dug in.

Immediately I recognized that taste. The Fucking Egg McMuffin has a slab of sickly McDonald’s ham on it! If it just says “Egg McMuffin” I expect it to be an egg, a muffin and a Mc!

The “Mc”, of course, just means meat. I ate the rest of the meat, considering I had already eaten a bite.

Dec 25 2008

This is certainly not the best way to contact people, considering I have only three followers. However, I would like to state that I am alive in middle-of-nowhere-New-Hampshire, and send this message to whatever civilization will have it.

Things, as they say, are good. Being 21 certainly makes this vacation easier.

Reading. So far, read:

The Man in the High Castle and Three Stigmata of Palmer Eldritch by Phillip K. Dick

The Plague, Albert Camus

The Sound and the Fury William Faulkner

All reccomended.

Still to get through:

Amerika,Kafka;

Some Bukowski and a couple of other Dick novels that are at my Grandparents’ house.

I would try to keep contact, but my phone rarely eeks out any service, at which point I get ten texts simoultaneously, and I would have to keep vigil over my phone until I could reply. I would use facebook, but I can’t stomach the dial-up connection to do anything other than a mass text.

Excited to get back to friends. Alex, tell Andy I am excited about the Simply Red reference on Family Guy.

Also epic wilderness journeys in two-foot snow with pics when I return.

Oh, Delphine, you might chance upon this; sorry about not getting in contact with you Sunday, turned out to be a crazy day/ got up at three in the afternoon.

Currently on: fifth cup of coffee and a dwindling tipsy. About to rectify with a Jack Daniel’s and coke, or maybe piss my dad off and take the last beer (St. Pauli Girl, which, by the way, has lessened the cleavage and Aryanized the girl on the front label).

It gets dark at 4:30. I want to go to bed by 7 usually. This coffee, in addition to abbrieviating my sentences, will probably keep me up for awhile though.

Although I almost definitely won’t respond, feel free to text me, although it will probably take a day or two for me to get it.

Been watching the PBS “Adventures of Sherlock Holmes” all night. Must say, pretty entertaining.

Miss everybody, will be back the 29th. May check my gmail (dustinrymph@) but otherwise will probably be isolated from society.

Mm…actually, some merlot sounds good…

Dec 13 2008

Dumb thoughts BETWEEEN!

Because I’m taking a semester off from school, I constantly feel as though I need to be thinking intelligent thoughts, at all times, or at least think about the stupid thoughts that constantly go through my head.

As it is, I have a constant litany of songs, some bad and good, going through my head. I know everybody has that, but I mean my thoughts are 80% songs. It’s just infinitely more pleasant than thinking about reality.

The other 20% is deep thought and random dumb/paranoid thoughts.

Driving to work at 6 o’clock the other morning- well, let me begin with another reference to my car and its defects. It’s right headlight is out, but on the brights, which are half as bright as a lot of the halogen lights etc., both work, so I just use those. But, since I have some driving anxiety every once in a while (pretty often), the fact that my brights are on worries me sometimes. For a split second, I was worried that morning driving to work that my brights would blind the train conductor coming the opposite direction and cause him to fly off the tracks.

First of all, why would the conductor jerk the train’s steering wheel (which I’m pretty sure doesn’t exist, right?) when he was blinded by my lights. Secondly, his lights are way brighter than mine, and they didn’t blind me, and since we were equal distances away from one another, it was highly improbable that he even acknowledged my existence.

Anyway, all I’m trying to say is that my thoughts are directly influenced 20% of the time by my extensive viewing of Leslie Nielson movies:

Practically Citizen Kane. If only Cit Kane weren’t such a snoozer.

“A couple, ah, huskie jerks, brought me to, ah, slimy slug South Dakota, up there by Timberdoodle? The Zebco brothers, up there by spetzwick and salty dog shrimp! Oh, I can’t go fishing this afternoon! I’ve got a big meeting up in- Mensroom.”

And then it does a whole Usual Suspects parody, well you see where this is going.

Dec 10 2008

From the Valley

As most of my friends know, due to not having a working tuner knob, the only station I get on my car radio is 92.9 the Eagle. This station is the last vestige of classic rock in Lincoln, Nebraska. The line-up of tunes is usually awful and, unlike the vastly superior now-deceased “95 ROCK!”, they frequently play songs, many terrible songs, twice or more a day. Now I know to those of you used to shitty pop-radio, it is surprising that they even play that wide of a variety of bad songs. Although, the worst song on 92.9 is worth twice the best song on the Top 40 stations. Anyway, I digress…

Between the mantras of Skynyrd, GNR, and if you’re lucky Bob Seger, they play the usual assortment of god-awfully-brilliant-more-annoying-than-a-fucking-ulcer-on-a-hernia jingles and bad local adds- for sex shops, pills that for inexplicable reasons give you the best sex of your life, KIA!!!! of Lincoln, and the like. But yesterday and today,I’ve been hearing something strange on the ole’ Eagle.

The CEO of Three Eagles, who owns 92.9 and many other radio stations, is giving mini-fireside chats during the commercial break- to “his fellow Nebraskans.”

I’ll conglomerate the two separate PSA’s into one for you- in the following segment, names have been changed, people. Names. Have. Been. Changed.

“Hi, this is Ray Dio, supreme ruler of Three Eagles, and thus I am apparently fit to decree my explanation to the masses as to the reasons for their existence. You notice how everybody’s losing their jobs’ n’ houses n’ pensions’ n’ entire industries n’ stuff. Well, here in Nebraska, we aren’t that bad.”

“Our numbers are up (those vague, vague, wonderful numbers!) beyond the worst states in the US. Though we’re mongoloids socially- I mean, do you know how busy Valentino’s Pizza is on prom night?- and we have some rich people, but also some of the poorest counties in the nation, and well, goshdarnit! We don’t set our sights too high, do we?”

And this is not exactly, but very close to litterally the sentece he uses,

“While everyone’s falling off the top of the mountain, we can’t help but keep on livin’ The Good Life, way down here in the valley.”

I guess I see where he was trying to go with the imagery, but you can see how I misinterpreted it to be insulting.

And then- YES! ZZ Top, CHEAP SUN GLASSES! (Actually, used to be one of my favorite songs. I mean, when I was like, psh, twelve!)

I think if the state of your local classic rock radio station is reflective of the condition of your state, and I firmly believe it is, the valley better start playing more Hendrix real quick.

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